Shadowplay
      by Brenna


   Thursday, January 29, 2004 - 10:50 AM

     Jay was griping at me to write a rant, but I felt utterly uninspired. So I turned on some music to hopefully find inspiration. It didn’t work, so instead of a beautiful, eloquent, and inspired piece of literature, you get this instead, a little thing that I though up because I like this song. 

Shadowplay – By Joy Division

Uninspired prose – By Brenna
 

To the center of the city where all roads meet, waiting

When people feel that they are at the center of all the things going on around them (that is, to say being in control of events), life can oftentimes turn out in ways you did not expect. Sometimes this is good, sometimes not so good, but the reality of it is, to everyone you are the center. And being the center, you find yourself. What you do with yourself is up to the whim of the self, good luck.

 Excuse me while I go pretend to be a philosopher. Or is that Robin’s job? (Just kidding Robin, you know I love you : ) )

 To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you

Hope can sometimes abandon even the most positive looking situation, and then the sensation of drowning in your problems becomes all too clear. Waiting for someone to save you will not do you any good.

 Not to make you feel depressed or anything, but the situation is hopeless. You might as well just give up now. And kill yourself too….

 I was moving through the silence without motion, waiting for you

Trying to hold your heap up will help your pride, but accepting the shame of a mistake and not being afraid of having other people see that in you is what will heal you in the end.

 And we continue with the depression….

 In a room with no window, in the corner, I found truth

Sometimes truth is only found when the outlook is so discouraging that it seems that all hope must be abandoned. Truth can come only when one is willing to accept that fact that what you long for will not be and you must then face reality.

 I think cheer up a bit, or at least relax.

I’m going to stop here, mainly because I don’t want to go through the entire song and this little part is enough. I still feel uninspired however, but oh well. Jay has his rant from me now, however weird it may be. Oh well, it only fitting that my rant be a little odd as I am a little odd myself. More than a little odd, as some might say. But if gets Jay to stop whining, then it will have served it’s purpose.

And I still feel uninspired.

  
Brenna,   to the center of the city in the night, waiting for you

Currently watching:  Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust ( jay's note: give me my movie back!)
Currently Playing:   Warriors of Might and Magic (forgot I had this game)
Currently Listening to: Shadowplay, Joy Division (duh)
Currently Reading:   Shadow of the Hegemon, Orson Scott Card (for the 500^th time)
Currently Mourning: The loss of my life, or at least the semblance of a life I had while at school (*sigh*)